sabato, luglio 11

comiskey fun and rain

friday field trip, to comiskkey aprk, no not to a sox game but to a high school all starr game commerating the nergro league all stars. Bit of a bust, the rain and all postponing the start till 2.05 and we having t leave @ 2.3 or so.

Still, an inning and a half.

I sometimes worry, bcause te program we are inolved in is supposed to acclimate the kids to HS - yet, a lot of the time I find it acclimates the kids to waiting. Wait for the bus to coe -m it was late. sort out the kids - we were late. Get to Comiskey Park - wait till thegates open, wait till the bus lists are sorted, then finally ... lotsa waiting - like what they are taught in the army, i have read ...

But again - we are suposed to show the kids the magic of hs - and here we are waiting about for mass minutes. Not our fault, but we want the ebst for the kids - and here is our new kids showing us fumbling about - albeit in a minor off to the side sphere.

Nice to be @ Comiskey, even through it was a bit of a drizzler and the Sox were i Minnesota. Nice to be amongst the kids. Nice day.

giovedì, luglio 9

live free from this diehard sequel..... despite Michelle O....

lynx

small sleep

Woken up, too early for any sorta comfort or any sorta fort whatsoever, and to school for a spot of soccer in the park. drive in on off day trying to get kids organized for next year. gambld for both boys and girls to be out there - but instead it was a tonne of boys and one girl. since i am mainly th girls coach, i was pleased that she was agressive and loving to play. played 8 -v-8, me only as a ref. chiva, goalie fromlast years girls varsity, played first half -she is a brand new fresjwoamn @ U.I.C., and was walking for the El home when she saw us playing - cheerfull child, but also a deeply willfully sullen streak. realised that my leggs can really no longer take part in active soccer - last sunday, when i played last, i feared for my knees - @ every point, they seemed to want to twist in several dirctions, hospitilising me for sure. avoid that, or postpone it, by not playing. played two 20m halves, w/ goals and switching of sides each half. It ended 1-1. rest of day was mess- snatched a bit of cinema via th home -watched the die hard 4 - awful - and sports - both a Whitesoxwinner and USA all overagain - and Strasser to Keegans for some drinks to take the place. was supposed to grill - but instead sallied for meatball sandwiches. and amazed that once again i have to construct calenders and arches and deadlines in order to try and best the Mittropa.

martedì, luglio 7

A People’s History of the Chicago Danse Floor: House Parties, 1980-2009’ part 8 : goodbye

Michael Jackson's passing, for purely selfish reasons, is mourned by me for one of his single greatest contrubitions to this world: girls like to danse to his songs. I told you I was selfish, yes?

Of course, I was alive in the time of the J5 and so lived through their #1 hits - who doesn't love "I want you back"? And then there is the Thriller era - well, kinda got sick of that shit longtimeago. But really Michael became a pure treasure to me ---yes, as much as an accused child molester - wait, as Norm Macdonnel always put it, a homosexual child molester - can be --- when I realised how they moved and swayed to his music.

Two stories, the latter in time the lesser but presented first:

..... a party, vito in town, kinda we can control the music, xmastime, and the only dasable LP @ all in the collection is "Thriller". The girls were dansing - they only liked girls, not boys, but boy the tall one was lushious - when suddenly in walked a dude who switched the music abruptly to heavy guitars. Ack!! We quickly switched it back baffled @ the thought that girls somehow were prevented from dansing by a young man. We believe he was insane. Jus' kidden. But it was that instant I realised that my mobile collection of CD's to bring to a party for danse purposes needed to have the entire Thriller LP.



...years before there was that period where Jacob and his livein girlfriend Spanky decided to have an open relationship and I was targeted by both of them to start ... dating ... Spanky. It was, to say the least, an interesting period- for a month or so Spanky would call and send letters and discuss .... you know ... whether to ... We'd all hang out during that period, the matter weighed and I just couldn't go through with it ... until a party came along.

It was my cousin MA's and my old girlfriend Madonna's in Rogers Park, and there were heavy tonnes of frenz and peoples there. Good party - Vito in his pre Cali days was the main dj that nite, tonns of people and twirling girls - and Spanky. It takes me a long time to get over girls, and although time had passed betwixt Madonna and I, it still was a little different to be about her and in her place. But this nite, Spanky was determined to ... win me over ... So it was a strange nite= a great great party, an old girlfriend, and most importantly a beautifulthing Spanky that decided that this nite she was really show me how much she wanted me. And, of course, Jacob was there. And although I couldn't quite yet say "yes" to the whole strange enterprise - I did decide to danse with this girl the whole nite, and not really care because..... just because...

We dansed w/ the crowd, it was nice, she was all over me, all over me, and we decided to .... danse to our own music. So - although Vito was djing in the main room and had a fucking funass talked about later floor going, , Spanky and I dansed by ourselves in another room on an old portable LP player. And it was one song we kept putting the needle back to start again and again and again: "I want you back". The needle, again and again. So we could go back to dansing and holding each other close...




Funny instances for a later date: remember how I said Madonna had still presented a problem for me in my mind up to this point? this nite truely was my Junteenth from that psychosis forever - shocking how it immediately dissapeared when something bubblynew was shocking with her savage courtship of me.

And: the very idea of danse as an afrodesiac or whatever - this nite really broke did break down all resistence on my part to their ideas on their relationship and how I fit into that context. Story for another time, but the major part for me was to get over my own resistence to the experiment - you know, it was Jacob, my good friend - and no matter how much I wanted.... but by spending the entire nite together w/ the girl just dansing - w/ Jacob there the whole time and very aware of what was going on ... allowed me to chill a bit about the situation ... and ...


Past editions of a peoples history of the danse floor can be garnered follweed up bub

lunedì, luglio 6

Momoris of Business Bob complaining about the music: "One song just stops and the guy screams.... MUTHERFUCKER!!!!"

God so Loved the ... wait, we so loved th world.....wait ...... God we loved this shit.... wait ... . we still so love this shit ....

this was from facebook of My Three Sons Mike - see, isnt facebook kool?

Ruined

Nephew.2 has been a regular user of free internet tv. He'd get up early each wkd to watch the Man. U. games live on his pc. Lazy regularly am I, so it was the final final league game of the year before I finally assmyoffgotof and tuned in - and it was stunning. Live Man. U., in my frontroom w/ my cafe.


Took some time, but soon an emergency cropped up - on the day of the (shitty) digital exchange deal, the Spanish station that the USA - Italy Confed. Cup was on (No cable me) wasnt coming in. So, out came the compter and until I fixed the digital deal, it was my link. The final real breakthrough came when th Fire had an un televised Open Cup game -v- and Second Division team. I tried to find it on the internet - but no go. All they had was fucking Twitter updates. Horrible. But as I kept up w/ the onliine twitter updates I watched several other Open Cup games online - like three or four of them. Mainly from these tiny minor leagur stadiums - it was fun. I exhausted the soccer schedule that nite (Fire lost 1-0) and sampled about - next was a Japanese baseball game. Watched that for an hour. Looked more about and found that Iish hurling and gaelic footabll and ............... holy shit, non channel 9 White Sox games are gonna now be available.


And I realised that it wasn't just that - the Irish news and programs from Ireland for Mom will be rally kool. But the sports angle is tite. For years I've been only to watch Man. U. in sporadic games - generally Champions League games - freely available on cable. Blessed frenz - Gallo and Blacky come to mind - taped a a variety of League games over the years. And BCD - an Aresanal man - tries to drag me to wacth games downtown. But now I really have the easy chance to regularly watch the team during the season. And 'non televised on free tv in chicago' Sox games. Fun - no more needing to go to a bar and dropping $ on drinx and feeling bloated and graag the neext day all because there was an important game on - like that first game of an important Spetember series against the Twins in Minny in 2004 - we lost.

Not to say I wont go out fer a game, y'hear me. But I like the choices. Although, there is the possibility I mite be ruined by this. well, not ruined, but ...

Pitifully cheap sometimes. The whole penny/pound/wise/foolish deal. But not quite. But, well, whatever.

sabato, luglio 4

vito'd on

Lars and the Real Girl

Knew of its press, not really knew of it's story. Jacob crashed over for sevral days, and Lars was one of the latenite movies we watched. Beyond good - great flick you should see for sure and prob. will enjoy. We watched it again. It had the effect on us of lining our speech for the next 24h (we parted ways) w/ refrences - sure sign of a class episode.



And not one but two girls next store to drool over. One was sexier than the other. Funny that when it came time to scowl for sexy shots of these two - and there are many on the web - I felt almost ashamed to accentuate their sexiness in securityout!

Ergo: tamed snaps of some deeply sexy women. Amen to this world, destruction of army group centre nonwithstanding.

Readlings

So, uh, Ive also been reading!! That 2 part history of the German-russian War by John Erickson that is so dry - I'm well into th second volume now. Felt it important as a student of history to read the acomplished and well thought of dual volumes on the history of that war - despite their dryness and their lenght. Made a point - to spur me to end it - to finish the first volume before school finished - did that. It was a slog, but it flowed easier near the end - partly because of the light @ the end, but also because it was fun to read of the Soviet version of Stalingrad greatly exlained. Since it was easy to finish, I figured I'd bite the bullet and just go ahead and start the slog of the sevenhundred pages so's I could just end erickson as a concern in my life (waited to read these books since 1984. Finally.).

A point I'd made about the mportance of me readiing these books was that most histories of the Russian- German war in World War Two I have been exposed to growing up were writen during the Cold War by Western writers. Since the Germans were now our allies and the Russians were our "enemies" the histories written during that time really lionize the fighting abilities of the nazis and downgrade that of the Soviets. So, beleatedly, I start my own campaign to reeducate myself on that war, except in a more balanced style.

It's still slow. I'm 250 pages in, and finally my impetus(sc) in the book has finally faded - meaning its started to slog. From now on, it will be tricky to finish - 400+ pages to go. But, Ive divided it up into 4 sections of 100 each - lame, ament i - and it will be ersiser to kill off.

And yes, it would be easier to just, say, not read books that are more akin to work - but then I wouldn't be able to pontifiacte about those battles and that war and claim the high ground by claiming "well, Erickson felt that....". It's that Pontificate that I'm after - and the knowledge that it rests on.

So - my funny aside point to youse who could care less on these matters? Well, reading all that Cold War stuff clebrating the Germans always really concentrated ont h early part of the war when the Germans were rocking the Russians world. Th divide is the Stalingrad battle -it's basically all Russian winnings after that. So its funny that these books - The Road to Stalingrad and the Road to Berlin - throws this whole ratio upside down. Instead of 200 pages of the German invasion from June to december 1941, we now get 200 pages of the final Russain attack on the Reich - 200 ags from Jan to April 1945.

So, 400 pages to go. And then more so. This is the Summer of my Russian Campaign. Although I actually have read a bit - my taste in War reading touched on aircraft bigtime for two years there maybe 5-6 years ago and I did read several volumes of the air war in the east - its fun to almost discover this war again.

venerdì, luglio 3

the nite lives on

early on

despite the present destuction of army group centre going on, i yam 'aving a spot o fun this summer. 'tho (luckily, as i sit here now) i didna get the summer school english gigg, i did get a paltry scrap of hours thrown my way via the avenue of 'freshman connection'. 'freshman connection' is divided into two parts - the AM period where the incoming freshman get math and english from 8-12. they can then go home or stay for the "PM" part - me work only the 'PM' part till 3.30p. its mainly goofy fun - that's my job.

the kids are in six large PM groups, and kinda kooly our group is the biggest - meaning the kids we have find it funner to stay rather than go home. We had sixty for a while. but to flesh out the other groups they took 20 of our kids. We're still the largest group. There ar two adults - me and an "ESP" (Teacher aide) We have a good set of kids of juniors and sophmores to help us - and its chill and fun and goofy and i like it.

the deal is is that the program had the possiblty to be a fucking drag - but i realised that here was a part where the whimisical side of meself is needed, expected, and would be workable. So, the last two weeks, I have been able to whistle each day and fuck around each day and be a fucking goof each day - but the nature of the program doesn't just allow this - it asks this of the adults. And - luckily I can actually do it.

I've always liked freshman a lot. They are so active, so grammerschoolish, so brite eyed - so fun to be around. As w/ areas else here @ this school, I find a great spot of peace.

Though, i note as well, the present battle of belorussia currently being played out brings me the opposite of peace.

venerdì, giugno 26

On Waiting

Had an interview - for my school and my position - last week. Was told i'd be told by today. Not Yet.

And the waiting now sucks. I'd had the interview on a Wednesday, and was told the folowing friday - yesterday - the news would be out. So, since the 'deadline' has passed, I amnow worried. I knew i wouldn't be 'gifted' the job, but I figured I'd have a good shot. I suppose i shouldn't be oo worried - maybe Monday word released - but this job is kinda a bit more imortant to me than any other job - so I sit and stew. I will also amidt that Ire ally haven't been pursuing other jobs in the system or subarbs. I know I should have been folowwing it up - but, eggs in one basket sorta thing.

There are 6 total candidates - me being one - and I caught site of one of them when I was preparing for my interview. Seemed I was a better candidate - but maybe not as I only saw a bit of him.. And then there are the other four up for the job.

The interview was tepid. It was w/ the principal and the other librarian. I raced to finish a little portfolio of my work - not relly a standalone portflio, but one that accentuated my 'selling of myself' to the principal. Despite the amount of preperation and work going into the interview - it lasted maybe 12m and wasn't really a comprehnsive go-over. I didn't get a chance to show my portfolio except for one part. i wasn't able to talk about being a total member of the library staff for the last three years. I wasn't able to talk about the soccer program (I'm head coach of the girls program - this is a good good thing). I was only briefy able to go over my love of the school 'just a little bit'.

What was went over?

The question of Questions, which i really do not have a satidfactory answer:

Principal: "So, Hilts, I see you left this school and you left this school when you were a classroom teacher- why?"

I confessed " Well, Mr. Principal .... I was a lot younger and did a lot of growing since then. My gifts - which are considerable - were not best highlighted as a classroom teacher. I hav been a librarian here for the past three years - and there has been all good positivs in thse last three years. "

And it's true. Im ideal for the job. Talking to Vito after the interview, we went over my recent resume. Vito is an administrator who - guess what - hires people for academic posts. His deal was that in the last seven yars I have had a good work record - mainly - and my checked past hopefully will not sink me.

Yet i wait - and the last two days I have specfically waited for the post to arrive and see f thre is a letter from my school - a slim, slender, or sleek envelope inwhich a rejection letter is addressed to me.

Here's hoping I get a call and not letter. But its time now ....

martedì, giugno 16

My New Obsession

Usually its the Letterman or SNL or Grey Whistle Test or whatever that blows the mind whith the kickass live version of song fuckin' brilliant song that one just cana get too used to - and here he delivers on letterman. But the second version? the unplugged one en el medio es bonito- the harmonies.....






 
 

domenica, giugno 14

The Loss

in todays dcs

sabato, giugno 13

Stalingrad

In the midst of all the Jutland stuff , my other revelation of interest when I was 18 - the Russian Front - justa dded a battle star to my tunic. Finally - i've been wanting since I was 18 - I fin shed The Road to Stalingrad last nite. Finally. It's pretty god - but reminded me of reading books on English soil conditions inthe 16th century sometime a grad school away. DENSE SHIT. But also - accomplished. Unfortunately, i'm still stuck in the world of some of my great accomplishments being finishing this book or another.

Went out to eat w/ GF last nite. Pretty good. Miss her since we rarely see each other these days - I stop by her library 2-3x a week, we lunch on Thursday afternoons, and ....... So, it was good to see her. She had to work on Saturday morning, so I decided to protect myself from Mitty- yeah, that fucking bad I've become lately - by finishing the last 20p and drinking up a bit. Did keep me out of trouble - a near runthing these days.

I was @ Lanigans - and it was loud, crowded, drunk, beautiful, and young. Lanigans can be a fucking ghost town some nites - but bot this nite Fun - but whatw as really fun was reading about the last little bits on the Stalingard operation. We all know how it turned out - despite our American D Day, Pearl Harbour, Iwo Jima - the Englanders tobruk and the Battle of Britian - there really was no battle like Stalingrad. Two events - the destruction of 6th Army @ Stalingrad and the burning of Hamburg - both in 1943 - were the events where the Germans were like "OH - SHIT - OH - SHIT!!!" Not only did it cost the Germans a quarter of a million men, it also was the fist major battle where the Germans were just throttled.

And Erikson knows it. This book was written from the Russian view. Erickson was a specialist in eastern languages and his major works comes out of his knowledge of the works not usually rad by western readers- and his extensive interviews w/ those involved. For years (I know, imrepeating fom lastweek) all we got was the Western perspective of the war -allw ritten during the Cold War and really hating the russians. So, we got decades of written shit where Western writers LOVED th fucking Nazis - because the Germans were now our allies and the Russians were supposed to be our enemies. So - the Germans were great, they almost won the war - and the Russians were sheep who only won because they would let their massed troops get gunned down in every battle in pursuit of victory. And pay no mind to the fact that NINE OUT OF EVERY TEN Nazis were killed by the Russians.

So - the importance of Stalingard - Erickson treats it so highly that the planning and carryingout of the offensive takes up a lot of space and importance in the bok. Fact is, oly the first half of th battle is even INTHIS BOOK. SInce this book is titled The Road to Stalingrad, it stops the moment the Russian pincers close around the kessel. The next book - which I immed. picked up when I finished the 1st volume - walked out of Lanigans w/ my newpour on my desk ...er, table- threw the just cmpleted volume ontot he front seat and picked up the new volume. Have only read the frst few pages, but it's good.

And that thrilling rush to finish the book. It took a long time to finally get the hang of reading it - so dense - but again the end was a race. It was all concerned about that operation and the planning of it and the readying of it and all that ... pages after pages - and when it all comes down - meaning when the artillery finally fires on the preadvance bombardment - Exciting.

Funny too - @ NIU, when my assignments were to read book after book and have meetings w/ teachers to discuss "what's it all about??", I developed the habit of penning in notes, underlines, numbers etc etc etc- anything to annotate the important stuff. I generally just underline these days, and all the way through Road to Stalingrad there are penned in underlines. However, when the artillery finally went off, i wrote in "finally" next to that section.

Here, however, is my favourite section of the book. It is the exact moment of genesis of the whole idea of a Stalingrad counteroffensive. The backdrop is that the Germans, in the second year of the German Russian war, had a giant offensive in the South. The Germans entered the city of Stalingrad and for several months the city was a most horrendous scene of destruction. This was the period of the war when the Germans could still mass troops, so both sides kept throwing troops into the city. @ the beginning, it just looked bad for the Russians - the Germans had pushed and separated the Russians defending the city - and the Russians were desperate for some solution. So - the big guys meet:

What, then, does the Stalingrad Front need to break through the German 'corridor' and link up with the South- Eastern Front, Stalin asked. Zhukov replied: at least one fully reinforced field army, a tank corps, three tank brigades, and no less than 400 howitzers, plus nothing short of one fully concentrated air army. Vasilevskii agreed with this estimate. Stalin at this point picked up his own map with the location of the Stavaka reserves displayed on it and studied it at lenght. Moving away from the table, Zhukov and Vasilevskii talked quietly between themselves in a corner, saying in effect that another solution would have to be found. Raising his head suddenly, Stalin asked: 'and what does "another" solution mean?' General Zhukov was apparently taken aback tat Stalin had such sharp ears. Stalin continued : 'Go over to the General Staff and think over very carefully indeed what must be done in the Stalingrad area. Think about which troops and which areas they can be drawn from to reinforce the Stalingrad group, but at the same time don't forget the Caucasus Front. We will meet here at 9 o'clock tomorrow evening.' (p. 389 of John Ericksons The Road to Stalingrad.)

Finally, a fight. One of the teachers @ my school. He's a good friend, but he's also The Know it ALL. BCD laughes about one of his buddies - nice guy, too - but his sthicht is all conversations hav to be about Bob Dylan or Ikera Kurasawa and his films. If these two topics are not being discussed - he'll make sure the conversation will make its way around to it. So, my teacher buddy - hes got a similar deal. It's really hard to have any sorta conversation bcause he instantly changes it to something else - and then start to say "See, yr wrong!! Yr wrong" and every time, its NOTHING from what I said. I mean every time, I find myself not being able to carry on w/ a second sentance because he has to change the subjet and ..........

So, lunchenette @ Gilmart, when Iwas trying to talk about this book, of course I couldn't get the second sentance out per usual, and I just told him my deal:

"

Let me speak on my subject - you can get the next minute, but please give me one minute. Shit - you can have the NEXT FIVE MINUTES - just please let me have one uninterrupted minute. And Barbarossa( the book he was presently reading?) Yes, a good book - it was the first book I ever rad on the subjectand started me on this road - but its FIFTYS OLD NOW, AND SHOULDN'T YOU READ SOMETHING WRITTEN IN THE LAST HALF CENTURY - especially since to me all of that during the Cold War written stuff is kinda tainted against the Russians?"

I felt bad. But at least I was able to get my opinion out for once.

people -all - over - the - world

Will be in the Far west subarbs in the AM - boy finally gotta get is haircut for an interview tuesday @ the one and only job (besides anything to do w/ the White Sox, Black Hawks etc...)I really want on Tuesday. So yes, the day I have been waiting for for many years - a job that Im really good @ and that makes me rock, is close. Very close. And I have no idea if I'll get it.

And mind you, for the last three years i have actually been working as a Librarian @the school already for three years. Im well liked by the staff and students and known full well they profit from my presence. I run the girls soccer program and will be w/ the boys in the fall - if all goes right.

BUT - who knows. There is one person who holds my fate - the principal. I will amidt to eddiecurrying favour - trying to- w/ him by being 'seen'. Damn sure he saw me @ Prom, and damn sure he heard me say that "This year a lot more teachers showed up than the last three". But I really hope that the effort and results froom me these past few years will pay off. I have worked hard for the kids - and I guess me as well.